Friday, April 08, 2005
hee. you like me.
posted by 
@ 5:03 PM
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Wednesday, April 06, 2005
i'm really hurting ): *bites lip*
your first message at 1.37 pm.
i waited too long
for 2 words and a sprinkle of punctuations
right ima go cry in a corner now
posted by
@ 1:45 PM
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Tuesday, April 05, 2005
dont.. push me around.. calling me to you only when you need me,
because i need you.
im sorry im not the type of girl you want to have and hold,
im sorry if i come across as being too clingy.
im sorry if i message you too often,
im sorry i don't sound or act the same face to face, as i am on the phone,
its just that, when i'm with you, i dont want to be anyone else,
but being me, that's just not good enough for you
and i feel terrible. inferior, thinking about so many true things,
that there are oodles of better girls out there for you,
that im so flawed, your impression of me might rot.
i just want a chance to be with you and throw everything else far away,
is that so much to ask?
probably.
i wish you a restful sleep.
posted by
@ 11:25 PM
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Monday, April 04, 2005
please just tell me if you like me or not.
haha i don't really like being in limbo here
creating false hopes in my very creative mind, thank you
now you're sleeping
and i can vaguely imagine how you look like,
how you smell like
how peaceful you look
that sets my heart at ease.
haha, see my creative mind.
posted by
@ 11:24 PM
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just wanna tell you so you know,
here i go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you, you are my only one.
i can't stop thinking about you,
do you feel cold with the rain?
i do.
: /
posted by
@ 10:37 AM
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Sunday, April 03, 2005
oh, distressing. so here we are, messaging each other incessantly, i dont know if the subtle hints that lurk in them are true, or he's just a bastardish flirt. well he makes me feel... good. except i cant help but feel it's an on-off thing, i sometimes KNOW that he doesn't like me, but if he doesn't, why does he demand hugs? (scandalous-sounding, i know :( ) i hate feeling this way, in such a limbo manner, i also hate feeling like im some kind of traitor, deceiving nicholas with my words, dipped in poison, scratching his flesh. i don't wan't to hurt him, but it seems that the only way to gain happiness for myself is to rob it from nicholas.
i never imagined things would turn out this way, but now im falling, falling deeper and deeper hoping one day you'll catch me and we'll find stable ground and build a home. falling, falling away from the clutches of nicholas, closer to the warmth of your hands, i can almost feel it. am i imagining things? maybe what i feel is just warm blood spilling from my ill heart.
i want to feel your callused hands ruffling my hair, i want to hug you and tell you i won't be the oversensitive bitch you fear, i want to tell you that i'll be so happy being with you because you let me breathe.
listen to my heart, can you hear it sing? telling me to give you everything.
how come whatever i was searching for, i found it in you?
posted by
@ 9:05 PM
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Wednesday, March 23, 2005
sometimes i think you could really be the one to save me.
maybe i need you to
because you're the only one i know who might..
please stretch you ears and hear me
i really need you to take me away...........
posted by
@ 6:33 PM
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Sunday, March 13, 2005
is it ever going to work out... because i keep thinking there's no more hope left for you and me. i don't even feel anything when we kiss now and i don't want to continue pretending that i'm mesmerised by you.
do i feel this way because of another person in my life, or am i just unhappy and unsatisfied with you. (though i think #2 would be a more rational excuse. hurhm.)
i don't want to immediately be stuck in another relationship if and when i end this current one. it's much too tiresome, too time- consuming, too emotional, too confusing, too sensitive, too touchy a subject to begin with.
guess i shall end it and be free-spirited.
i pray i w0n't get harassed.
posted by
@ 12:54 PM
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